Ugly

I was 12 going on 13 when Betty La Fea was a hit. I remember getting in trouble and not being able to see the best soap opera ever to air on television, it was torture.I remember it making me feel inadequate as a girl. Yes , a show about an 'ugly' woman made me feel inadequate. It was all for good reasons though. I remember using glasses and braces feeling a little awkward. What made me feel worse? Not feeling smart or witty enough.I was not allowed to wear makeup until I was 15 and when I finally could I felt embarrassed putting it on in public.I felt as though makeup was a way of letting people know I was covering my bad personality or making them deviate their attention from what I had to say to what I looked like.It took me a while to get over it and sometimes I still feel weird when someone looks at me while I apply mascara.
They're airing Betty again and I still love it. It inspires me to be smarter and most importantly it makes me want to find someone who likes me for who I am. Pretty or not. Witty or not.